Monday, February 23, 2009


I think that often times I feel like I am misunderstood by others. It feels like most times when I have something I really feel is important that I don’t have someone to talk to who feels the same way that I do. I often feel lonely during these times because I think there is nobody who understands me or what I am going through and often in the past I have forgotten one important fact. When it seems like nobody else understands you, God always does. I realize that may not be a profound statement because since God is omnipotent then He knows everything and therefore how could He not understand you, right? But I think it is more than that. Jesus came to earth and lived life as a man so He could understand our temptations and our trials. Instead of sitting up in heaven looking down and saying, “yeah I understand you are having trouble” God sent His son to experience those troubles first hand. I think that this is very important because often we feel that nobody understands us when you cannot find someone who has had an experience like yours. If they don’t know your anguish or your pain they cannot appreciate what you are going through at times. But God understands and you can count on Him for that because He made sure that He could touch us on such a personal level. It is truly amazing what He did for us when you think about it.

In Memory of Jennifer MacDougald

Iver called tonight. Jennifer, our friend and accompanist back at MSU has passed away. The world has lost a very special person indeed. Jennifer was an exceptional musician but more than that; she was an exceptional friend. She was always there to listen whenever you needed and she usually gave great advice. You could be yourself and know that she always accepted everyone. It didn't matter if you weren't exactly like her; she was so loving of the people in the music program.
There were days when I would go in for my singing sessions manic with joy and days that it was hard to walk in the building let alone sing. But I knew that when it came to my time to work with her that I always had a friend who stood by me.
The biggest thing was that Jennifer wasn't just acting this way for me; it was for everybody. I don't know a single person who knew her that didn't like her. She was so caring and friendly.

My best thought of Jennifer:
I remember singing a solo out of Les Miserables. Empty Chairs at Empty Tables. I didn't ever sing it for a recital but I loved the song and I always worked on it on my own. Jennifer knew about it and she would always play it for me. We would work on our other music but sometime during the session she would whip out the book and we would run through it. I don't know if she ever got sick of the song or not but I always appreciated the fact that she would play it for me because it made me happy to be able to sing the song. That is exactly the kind of person she was.

Thank you Jennifer for touching our lives in so many ways as a musician and a friend. We won't forget you. I know you are in a better place and I am glad the pain is gone. We will miss you but I know I will see you some day in heaven and I look forward to being a musician with you in God's Holy Choir.

peace and love,

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